As I end up my College Days, I am reminded that this is not the end but rather the beginning. It is the beginning on which I’ll face a bigger life, a bigger world. A world full of responsibilities, seriousness and maturity. Far more than our comforts zones. As I take up my first step, I would like to thank God for lighting my path on my previous years. Directing me in every way and showing me the right path. I always believe that without His grace I won’t be able to set my foot on where I stand right now. This success I attained, I always offer to Him for His further greater glory. <3
In my life I’ve made numerous mistakes. Valid or invalid, I may say. In times I tend to do these over and over that it turned to be such a ritual. Never minding the result and the implications it may cause. It’s like it doesn’t matter if I’m hurting others or not. More often than not it turned out to be a selfish act without me knowing. That sometimes led to some tragic end.
But I believe all things work together for good. Nothing is just a coincident. Everything happens for a reason. Good or bad it may be, it is for a reason!
Sometimes we’re hurt. Sometimes we break. But most important is that we learned. That beyond that hurtful consequences. Beyond tragic ends, we came to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
These mistakes I’ve accepted as a blessing. Through this I constantly thank God, ‘cos without it, I wouldn’t find my strength. Strength to stand my faith. Strength to overcome fear. Strength to start anew. Strength to be a better one. And strength that comes only from Him.
I know I messed up! I know I am wrong! But I am thankful, still, that beyond I’m wrecked there is still people, who I personally believe, that are given by God. People who never get tired of loving me, understanding me, believing in me, though I hurt them most of the time.
I thank God for the lives of my PARENTS. Who push me up in my every fall. Who taught me to walk everytime I stumble. Who gave me happiness when I starts to cry. Who uncovers my eyes to see the light!
Thank You Daddy! Thank You Mommy! I may always forgot to say this everyday, but let me stay my forever with you and make all my mistakes be undo and make my every action speak this words that I made unspoken: I LOVE YOU, BOTH! AND I WILL ALWAYS WILL! <3
Being obedient is what God wants from us. Following His will and not rejecting it. Obedience is one important area in walking with Christ. ‘Cos if we want to walk with Him we must first know how to obey. Jesus said, “If You love me, You will obey all my commandments.” (John 14:15) Hence, let’s follow Jesus and His commandments and see the blessings in stored for us. Remember: There is blessing through obedience. Obedience can open doors of blessings, doors of healing and even doors of salvation! We just have to trust in Him and increase our faith. So, when He ask us and said, “Take up your cross and follow Me.” There should be only one answer, and that is “YES LORD.”
This year I chose to live with satisfaction. To be the one whose life is beyond compare. Not like the life of anyone in this world but of a life a citizen of heaven has. A life full of happiness and enjoyment yet simple and as peaceful as it may be. Whose life that are blessed to have the fruit of the holy spirit. A life that experiencing the benefit of the cross. And a life that has an undying love for JESUS. Living as what God wants me to be.
I must admit that my previous years are way, way too complicated. It’s like I live a life full of perfect illusions. That beyond those illusions is the reality that lies within. It is as if mimicking someone else’s life or making a fool out of myself. I don’t know! I really don’t know what’s truth and what’s not.
All I want is to be awaken in this dark realm. To be away from approaching mocking. Escape as soon as I possibly can. To the betterment. For anew. For change. For GOD! Because I can’t be able to be intimate with Jesus if my life is still unfix. I want to be whole when I’ll turn my life to Him and love Him, the way He first love me. (1John 4:19)